Saturday, May 21, 2011

Smell the Blubonnets

 http://www.youtube.com/embed/FhNrrrCCTdA

I have been joking around that I feel a mid-life crisis coming on as I approach the big 40.  To clarify, I am not longing for carefree, kid-free days and I'm not plotting to buy a sports car and I'm not wishing for anything different than my current state.   In fact, my life is so much happier, and just plain better, than it was in my teens and twenties.  What I am missing these days is life with a baby in the house.  Oh sure, if you'd of asked me about baby-life back then, I would have probably complained about diaper changing, sleep deprivation, lack of adult conversations, and all the things that can wear a mama down.  But I feel like I blinked one day and now it's all over.  What happened?  Where are my little babies?                              
                                                  


  
These pictures were taken right before we moved to Oklahoma so Madi must have been 5 and Mo was 2 and a half.  We had sold our house and had been living in a small two bedroom apartment for over a year.  The worst part of this togetherness was  when a virus made its way through the family.  The best part was everthing else.  We did not have home remodeling projects distracting us, we did not have stressful jobs, and we did have a beautiful pool, that someone else cleaned. 


The focus of most days was to just get up
and watch them wonder at the world. 






       


But life is about change, right?  Oh Stevie Nicks you were dead on: 


      Can I sail through the changing ocean  
      tides?
      Can I handle the seasons of my life?
      Well, I've been afraid of changing
      'Cause I've built my life around you
      But time makes you bolder
      Even children get older and I'm getting
      older too...




I guess it's about acceptance and gratitude.  I must accept that a field of bluebonnets will probably no longer blow their minds and that Dad's games of airplane, clown dance, and pirate are in the past. 




And I must be thankful for every fleeting moment, because one day soon, I will look back and long for the sweet days of their childhood again.    
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5 comments:

  1. HeatherMay 21, 2011 at 7:11 PM

    And one day we'll look back and see what they wondered about during this time in their lives. For me, it's frogs. I fear the day when Briley no longer finds frogs to be fascinating. I don't want her to turn all girlie and not be enticed by frogs. Current circumstances aside, 40 hasn't been *that* bad!! ;)

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  2. HeatherMay 21, 2011 at 7:13 PM

    PS - I really like Stevie's hair in that video!

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  3. UnknownMay 21, 2011 at 7:43 PM

    I don't see Bri ever changing into a true girlie-girl - she is so true to herself and will probably stay a nature-amphibian lover her whole life.
    Me too (Stevie's hair).....that's b/c we are true 80's girls. Madi watched the video and said: How old is she, because her face looks so young, but look at her hands.

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  4. HeatherMay 22, 2011 at 1:52 PM

    Note to self: Wear gloves around Madi.

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  5. UnknownMay 22, 2011 at 7:14 PM

    Plastic surgery can tweak a lot, but like my carnival friend taught me: the hands tell all

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